Changes

So many changes are happening this year. My son is in Fuji, seeing parts of the world I have only dreamed of. My husband is fervently praying about his job situation and thinking about making that step to be his own boss. My baby Annabel is starting high school next week. And finally, I am planning a baby shower for my first grand-baby; if any of you know my OCD on planning I have two notebooks of ideas, lists and plans for this. My poor family has no idea what they got themselves into. Pinterest doesn’t help, because they have even more ideas for me to use. And of course I have to do them all, because of course it is my first grandchild.

When I first found out I was going to be a grandmother I wasn’t having it! I had sooo many emotions going through me (yup, I know.. I am a bowl full of emotions at any given moment). Weeks of crying alone in my prayer room (the shower), being angry at what I did wrong ughhh sooo many times as a mother, the things I did to my parents (is this payback) then coming to the realization, all babies are a gift from God, and I am getting my gift in October. My mom told me that once Athena comes the love I have for her will be even so much more different than I have for my own children. And even now as I type this the tears are falling down because she isn’t here and I already love her so much.

Then I start to think that the holidays are just around the corner and my daughter will be starting her own traditions with her new little family, will we be part of those traditions. I pray we are, actually I know we are. Our family is so strong knit nothing can come between us. It’s funny because our home is so quiet now, it doesn’t seem complete without my son, and soon it is going to be gaining two more people. Steven and Athena will complete our home; the warmth in my heart is full of so much Love. And I know God is in the middle of all this Love because without him I know I couldn’t of made it this far. He has kept me grounded in his Love and with that I am able to overcome any obstacle thrown at me. Have a blessed week.

Psalms 139:14

 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.