Faith is what helped me through this.................

Well it has been quite a month. First off.. I am a grandma, YUP, I KNOW, finally….It all began on October 8^th I was at work and I get a startling phone call from my daughter freaking out that she thinks her water broke. Of course I was right out the door. We headed to the hospital and of course it wasn’t her water, we joked and said she pee’d her pants. That’s the way we joke around at home with each other, Yup, I know. Feeling the love. We all decided to make a big dinner and enjoy each other’s company, because Jacinda knew this was it. Around 9 pm she started having unbearable contractions, but I was determined not to take her in till she was screaming bloody murder. By 1 in the morning the contractions were around 5 minutes apart. I know when I had my kids I was a screaming psycho exorcist. So that was what I was expecting from her, (after all she is my hypochondriac of a daughter)  Yup, I know…not cool…but ohhh so true. After hours of labor, water breaking, fever, heart rates off the charts (mind you she still isn’t screaming) Athena was finally born on Thursday. A day we all anticipated. A love I never expected to feel ever in my life, but would never trade it for anything. During the first 8 hours of labor, I received an unexpected phone call that my grandfather had passed, Yup, I know, one life leaving and another entering this world. I had sooo many mixed emotions, I didn’t know if I was coming or going. But I did know that the most important people in my life were there to share it all with me. It was as time of learning how to deal pain, joy, loss, excitement all at the same time. I know God was in the middle of all this. It strengthened relationships that I was uncertain of, but God being God came out faithful as usual. Lots of praying filled that hospital floor.

Knowing Jacinda was hungry Jesse and I went to get her some food before we headed home to shower, yup, two days no shower. YUCK!!! On the way back we stopped to get Jacinda some flowers, as Jesse’s phone rang, he walked outside and I could see him through the window.. The face of brokenness, a heart that just got pulled out of his chest is all I seen. He told me the Drs were doing tests on the baby and they were putting her in the NICU. We prayed all the way back to the hospital. We text my son in Japan, and he said the stupid tests (that’s all they are stupid) and reminded us she would be fine. Unfortunately the tests came back positive and they were going to keep
Athena for 7 days. To see my daughters and Stevens face, you could see the helplessness in their hearts, even now it brings tears to my eyes, knowing there was nothing I could do but pray and believe the Faith I preach about, is something I have to believe. But when you’re in the middle of the storm, do you really believe, that’s hard. I’m just being real. I prayed, God what did I do wrong, is this the sin of the parents coming down, (mine & jesse’s sins) coming back on our granddaughter; tell me what to do to make it all better, don’t let my daughter hurt.

 I thank God I grew a sister/friend in this time, someone I never expected to open up to was Stevens mom. It helped me, praying for each other and encouraging each other during this time. It was an amazing miracle.

Well 7 days have passed and we were at the NICU with bells on to pick up our princess. Well she is home and doing well. Thank you everyone for the prayers!!! The wonderful fulfilling richness has begun. 

Hebrews 11:1

 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.