Loose Ends

As I sit here at my desk trying to tie up loose ends at work before I leave for 10 days, my mind keeps wandering. And then I find myself in a puddle of tears. Thank God I didn't wear contacts today. Tomorrow marks another wonderful milestone that I am so grateful for, my daughter J will be graduating from High School. I was a little apprehensive when the school year started, then when she moved out to get married, I honestly didn't think she was going to do it. Oh,  Ye of Little Faith.. yup, I know that's me. She has proved me wrong. She is growning up to a wonderful mother and woman of God raising her daughter up in the faith. OHHH,  I am such a big baby when it comes to my kids!!

We started the week off with a 3 day fast, Monday went smooth....then Tuesday.. a couple of bumps in the road.. a little self condemnation and insecurities started to flood in, little nibbles of lies begin to come in.. I had to stop and pray.. remind myself that I have come this far and there is no turning back, because the end is already written and we have WON. 
So like the usual me, I found every little thing I needed to do.. or extra things as I usually do, to keep myself busy. I needed ribbon, so I went into my very neglected craft closet (Jesse calls it my $200 closet) and decided to clean it out.. WHOA..that was a bigger job than I had envisioned.. Well it didn't help that at Valentines and Easter I got a couple of Huge grab bags of extra stuff for $2 bucks at Micheal's Craft (yup, I know SCORE) 

Well in the middle of that I realized I needed to get to the store to get candy to make Jacinda her candy leis for graduation, plus for the youth that are graduating with her that are in our Young Dogs (Disciples of God) Youth Group.

 Before I knew it it was already 10pm. I love how God helps me come back to reality and not play the pity party, he is sooo faithful in that. Because if we are honest alot of time we play the victim in our own little pity parties (or is that just me?) 
Well its Wednesday, at 5pm I clock out for vacation. I haven't even started packing, Still got to shop, cook & decorate for a graduation dinner at my moms, pick up Jesse's dry cleaning, pack, go to the bank, pack the suburban,  the list goes on and on......ohhh wait didn't I just say no pity party??? I am just sooo ready to get on the road for our annual Tuscon Conference. I NEED a refresher or just a good kick in the butt, so I don't forget where I come from. Jesse wants to leave Friday at 3am... yup, i know.. he is something else.. he is just excited to get there early and spend time with our girls and so am I, but 3 am, that's a bit early. 
A few months ago I wrote about how excited I was about my cousin and her husband locking into one of our fellowship church's,  well the best part of our trip will be getting to meet up with them and meet their church family. See How Awesome Our God Is!!!! Well I better get off this computer, wipe the tears and get moving! Have a great week!!

Mathew 14:31

And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?”