Mother's Day

I hope all you wonderful mothers had a fantastic Mothers Day, I got to Celebrate 2 days in a Row.. Well 4 if you count Thursday & Friday too. See Thursday evening we took Steven & Cinda out for dinner and did some walking at the Simi Towne Center and went to the armed forces history museum, then Jesse was like "hey lets pull an all nighter" (thats about 11:30 pm our time haha) So we did just that and headed over to my favorite all time store Winco (grocery store), did some serious damage there and went to bed way past our all nighter time. Then Friday my hubby took the day off and we hung out all day, took Annabel to School then went window shopping, I tried on sooo many outfits and left with nothing (that drives Jesse crazy) but I'm the kind of shopper that has to "Feel" it to actually buy it, Crazy, Yup, I know. After a couple more stores we decided to try something new for lunch, Famous Dave's BBQ, I'm not a big fan of BBQ Sauce but this place was a super WINNER in my book. We then went and picked up our granddaughter, and her & I went Shopping (i know again?) with my Mommy.. :) while Jess stood home and studied for his sermon. She wanted to Bless Cinda with new clothes for our Annual Church Conference in Tuscon. After a crazy day of shopping we finally came home and another wonderful surprise was my baby boy (not so baby, 20 year old US Marine, hee hee)  showed up for the weekend festivities, I wasn't expecting him to come at all. 
Saturday Morning we all got up and got ready to head south to see Jesse's family, see May 10th is Mexico's Mothers Day. We had a huge BBQ and his sisters home ( a place we love getting together at). Wonderful food and the kicker is they asked Jesse to pray over the food before we started. I think its awesome that they embrace prayer (especially since some of them think we are "extreme" with "our church") I was just glad my mother in law got to have all her childeren, grand children and great grandchildren there to help her Celebrate. 

Sunday Morning followed with more celebrating, I was in my room getting ready for church when my two girls came in with my gift. They sang me a song.. I was trying so hard to stay strong and not cry but by the time Cinda sang her solo.. I was choking down the tears. It was the best gift ever!!!! I was blessed again with my Hubby getting to preach at church (our pastor and his family were on vacation). He did amazing!!! He always does!!! I am so proud to call him my Husband. We had a few visitors, two main guests were my mom's sisters!! She was so excited. See she just got a new Tablet and posted on FB to let all her family and friends know her Son in law was preaching.. She is so cute!! I love her so much, especially into the wonderful woman of God she is becoming. Just the encouragement she gives me (she might not know it, but she does)!

After service my husband blessed my mom, me and Cinda with lunch at the best Chinese Restaurant in Oxnard, Yup, I know. .... Golden Chicken Inn.

Finally to end the spectacular weekend, my husband got me a purse, Yup, I know.. I have to many purses.. don't worry it wasn't another Dooney or Coach... hee hee but it was cute!!!!

I hope all you mothers out there were as blessed as I was this past weekend! We all deserve a pat on the back because being a mom is one of the most emotional, tear jerking, rewarding job in the world, and the worst part is our children are only borrowed for this time on earth!!! But so worth it!!! Have a great day!!

Proverbs 23:25

Let your father and your mother be glad, And let her who bore you rejoice.

Just because............I LOVE HER

What are you hiding????

My last entry was only after months of dwelling on something internal that was spiritually killing me, my marriage, my family but most of all my walk with God. We are in the midst of a revival at church and my hubby asked me before it started if I was going into it with an open heart and mind. I told him I would go in with an open mind, but my heart is mine. I was still to afraid to give it out, just to be shred to pieces again (yup, I know.... over exaggerating my emotions again). We kicked off the revival with one of our carnivals at the park,  Jesse asked me mid-way if I would give my testimony.. there was no thinking about that one.. I instantly said No. Then on Sunday Morning, I was so excited to be in nursery (if you know me, you know I really am not big on nursery, but I figured it was better than what God was going to be doing to my heart) After service as usual during a revival some kind of quarrel comes up between me and Jess... and it was a doosey.... but then I seen it with my daughter and her husband. I had to sit back giggle and then think "What am I doing", remember those inherited curses I was talking about? Yeah I ain't breaking those chains, I am giving them to my kids and their growing families. GOD Smote me (not literally but spiritually) something broke inside me. I went to service that night EXPECTING great things. Was it an over the top sermon? Did the heavens open? Nope none of that.. just straight preaching and something started to turn in me. Then last night, I seen miracles.. things I have been holding onto that no one knows about but God were revealed in the preaching. Simple words, about hiding the hurt, brokenness and that's what I had been doing, and all the while blaming God and my Husband, for things that are far beyond their control. I thank God for his faithfulness. Its on his timing. I had to go through this to see his truth and power, and I did just that.
The next miracle, was couples and families that havent been at service showed up. Words of encouragement were given out. My heart is right and ready for the next chapter of what God has for Jess and I. and I know its BIG!!!!  Have an awesome day!!!

1 Chronicles 28:9

“As for you, my son Solomon, know the God of your father, and serve Him with a loyal heart and with a willing mind; for the Lord searches all hearts and understands all the intent of the thoughts. If you seek Him, He will be found by you; but if you forsake Him, He will cast you off forever.

Pivotal Turning Point

All I can say is the last 3 months have been a complete blur. I have allowed something to come into my heart and kill, steal, & destroy the peace and joy God has given me. I know exactly the day and hour it happened, Yup I know.. am I continuing to dwell on it? Sometimes... yeah.. just being honest. 
Knowing in my heart and soul that God would never let me down, he is the first I let go of. I got angry and upset, felt like it was all his fault I was feeling this way. How could he allow my daughter to move out and take my grandbaby with her (mind you I didn't care that her and Steven were about to make things right and get married) 

Ohh no none of that matter to me!!But God knew what he was doing, I didn't care it had to be my way... Whoa who do I think I am, you may say. The person that Jesse always says that is so stubborn that I would cut my right arm off to prove I was right (when I am ever wrong??) Yeah Right!!! More than I would like to admit.
Have I gotten better, have I given everything to God, No and Some... but I can't give up, I won't give up. I have some family curses to break and help my daughter and her new family to learn from. I just thank God he isn't anything like me, cuz he would of left me High & Dry. 
Well off to a busy week.. REVIVAL... maybe soon i will go into a deeper detail of all my stress' and worry. Have an awesome week!!