Christmas Tree Fiasco

Every year during Thanksgiving weekend we get our Christmas Tree, its been like that since jesse and I have been together. This Thanksgiving weekend came and left so fast this year and no tree, we were sooo busy with Family and guests this year (David brought home a Marine buddy that wasn't able to go home for the holidays so we opened our  home up to him) He stayed all the way through Sunday. He even went to Anaheim with us to see Annabel wrestle at the first tournament for the season. She came in 3rd only losing to a girl that is ranked 4th in State. She is focused for this year and I'm excited to see how far she will go.

Okay, getting back to my Christmas Tree Story, Jesse left the Friday after Thanksgiving Weekend to Phoenix for a Men's Rally in our fellowship, meaning another weekend without a Tree. Ohhh No.. I needed that tree in my home. So Friday when Annabel got out of school I decided we would do it. We ended up at Cheesecake Factory for a nice dinner, then walked around the Oaks, (we had to walk off the Gluttony of a meal we had just endured) Leaving the Oaks, we both complained how tired we were and it was dark already, but we trudged on, getting 2 cups of coffee to spark up our passion to get the tree. Many of you know me and Belly are vertically challenged and our suburban is pretty high up (Yup, I know.. .I have to jump to get inside the driver seat, and have the seat pulled all the way forward to drive) Well we finally arrived at Home Depot and Belly was like "mom, how are we going to get that tree on the suburban" Ohh Ye of Little Faith!!! The Awesome worker at Home Depot Put it on top of it for us and even tied it down, of course Bell was watching the mirror the whole time making sure the tree didn't go flying off. When we finally got home we were stratergizing how we were going to get it off the roof of the SUV.. Annabel climbed on one side and me on the other, I wish I had someone taking pictures of this. When we finally off the car and took it upstairs, got it in the tree stand (only 2 hours to try to stand up in the stand without falling over). Here is the finishing tree... None of the ornaments match and the kids ornaments from elementary school are on it... See I am OCD remember and the oranments are supposed to match and be set on a theme, but with my age (and knowing Athena will be making me ornaments soon) I figured I would let Annabel go at it this year, so when Athena wants to, the kids can't complain. (shhhhhh... yup, I know not fair)

Sooo there you go... Wait.. no Fiasco in that story.. well i'm not done. Bell and I finally went to sleep, since she had to wrestle and be in Oxnard at 10 am the next morning, so while I was in a deep sleep I heard the loudest CRASH ever at 6 in the morning. I thought the building got hit or a train crashed across the street, but in an instant.. I remembered I put up the tree the day before. So I jumped out of bed and ran to the living room, my instincts were correct, my wonderful tree was on its side water all over the gifts and just lying there pitiful. I instantly texted jesse ( WE ARE GETTING A FAKE TREE NEXT YEAR & YOUR NEVER ALLOWED TO LEAVE THE STATE DURING THIS TIME OF YEAR EVER AGAIN).He laughed at me and called me, I could hear the guys in the background making fun of me. Ohhh talk about getting my adrenaline up and not being to go back to sleep. Annabel and I had to get a ladder to hold the tree up till Jesse got home that night. It was the most depressing looking tree ever. Well we got our tree up and ornaments back on, gifts re-wrapped (yup, i know.. they all got wet) But its gonna be a good Christmas, I got all my children coming home and my Mom. Have an awesome rest of the week!!!

Matthew 8:26
“Why are you fearful, O you of little faith?”

L.L.S. - LOVE, LEAD, SHARPEN

So many things that are so out of the norm have happened in the last two weeks. My heart breaks over alot of it. Is it self inflicted or just people? People always say your weak if your a Christian, but I beg to differ, being a Christian has been one of the toughest challenges to me (besides being a mom) See if your like everyone else in the world, something goes wrong or you don't like it, you can easily make a phone call cuss someone out and go have a drink, and who cares if you were in the right or in the wrong (yup, I know... I was cussed out this week), funny thing is it was done over voicemail, I just seen I missed a call but there was no message there, so I called this person back, had to calm the situation (without getting my emotions involved, which is such a hard thing for me, ask anyone that knows me) But I could hear Jess in my head saying, keep your cool cuz this can escalate, needless to say I got the person calm and hope it is situated, only time will tell, considering I thought it was taken care of last week. Anyways, that leads to how awesome God is, because had I heard that message of her cussing me out before I called would I had reacted differently... me knowing me.. For Sure... I would of manifested and been called legion in that one phone call HA HA HA (yup, I know.. i'm a nut) I have to sit and laugh at this because if I don't I can grow bitter, and that bitterness can grow into something nasty, something I want no part in.
This whole situation that started up last week got me and Jess talking about some serious things, and I had to tell him how much I just need his Love and for him to Lead... with those two things.. he begins to Sharpen me.. help to build me (with God's help of course) into the Woman, Wife, Friend, Mother, that God Wants me to be. I have such a hard time saying yes to God, no comes out sooo much easier (yup, I know... to personal) but you know what, these entries help me vent out in a way, so that nasty bitterness doesn't creep in. Its like just lately we both find ourselves fighting something... its like we get to this certain point in our walk and don't know how to get that breakthrough. Jesse went to Phoenix for a mens rally with our fellowship for 2 days and came back excited for what he heard, and knew what he needed to do.. Well the day after he got home, i have a breakdown.... i knew i needed a breakthrough.. lucky for me he bought the DVD's and put one on about addiction (don't worry i'm not an alcholic or on drugs) but addiction is a type of idolotry .. anything you put before God.. and my addiction can be my bad temper or negativity.. Let me tell you 5 minutes into the DVD, I was like Shut it Off.. i'll repent already.. LOL. I finished the video and thanked my hubby for once again loving me enough to lead me to the sharpening knife and putting me under for a quick heart surgery. Even after the heart surgery, Jesse still felt uneasy, called a brother in another state about some stuff... maybe to whine who knows but the brothers response was "how do you now all these things, God isn't orchestrating to deal with some things you and Delilah need to deal with, for something greater that is to come" HMMMMM??? Can you say we both had to repent AGAIN... I love this fellowship and the men & women in it, when we are going through the fire, I know we can call someone and get some good Godly advice and its not biased but based off the word of God.
Sorry if this entry was a heavy reavy... next entry will be lighter as I tell you about my Christmas Tree Fiasco.. hahaha

PROVERBS 27:17 

As iron sharpens iron, So a man sharpens the countenance of his friend.