Hello my name is Regret, hello my name is defeat….Those are the first words to one of my
favorite new songs. Today of all days I have had this overwhelming heaviness on
my heart. It seems like lately God has been reminding me of the joy he can fulfill
in your life, he has brought back memories from when I first gave my life to
him over 15 years ago. The simpleness of everything, asking him for every silly
thing (yup, I know, nothing is silly to him) but as you get older it seems
silly. I turned down this path of forgetting who I was and seeing what I had become
and I hated that person. Trying to talk to my children and guide them, help
them not to make the same mistakes I did, but seeing them go down that same
destructive path, because it’s different for them. It does bring on heaviness.
I know God has something wonderful in store, but when your in the present,
living it NOW. You feel alone, and that small voice reminds you constantly of
your “what if’s” Lies, Yup, I know, straight from the pits of hell. Trying
to climb out and have the victory that is already won.
Talking to my son who is serving our country in Japan
right now, and him telling me how he regrets being a bad brother to his
sisters. My response; you have been redeemed don’t believe the lies from the
devil. Its funny how when you’re having a self pity party, and they have their
own issues you console them. But don’t take your own advice. Well not today, I’m
taking it!! Because I know I am the child of the one True King, I've been saved, changed, I have been set free!!!! Have an awesome day!!
1 John 5:4
For whatever is
born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the
world—our
faith.
