Punching Bag

WOW... So the first 15 days of December just flew, and I thought i was going to get caught up in the tornado of the whirlwind I was stuck in. You all know how crazy busy I self inflict myself and why would December be any different. It all began with me telling Jesse, my only wish for December was to get closer to Jesus, (yup, I know.. only asking for a bulls eye on my forehead is better) As soon as I said that I was inflicted with so many trials from that stinking devil. I should of known better. See the devil hears our cries just like Jesus does and is oh he will take full advantage of whatever he can. I totally fell into the devils devices, getting upset to the point of anger not mad (blowing up kind) to things that I have totally no control over. Isn't it just like the devil to do that,  but of course me being punching bag, I allowed it. I would repent, give it to God and wake up to another day of craziness, too busy to read my bible or too busy to pray, (yup I know, my prayer closet is in the shower; and yes I showered every day, but I was still to angry to pray) Jesse would grab me and say lets pray, I would sigh and huff and puff and say go right ahead. Me being the prideful person I  know I am continued through the week letting the devil use me as the punching bag for his pleasure. 
I worked late every day last week (not my norm) I had to help my husband with the black light presentation we were doing with the children's church on Sunday, and plan, cook and prepare for the women's brunch at the church (worried no one would show like last year, where I cried all the way home) & got into a big TIFF of an Argument with my daughter. What was I thinking, about trying to get closer to God? This isn't the time.... WHOA WAIT.. wasn't my last blog just on that ... Jesus Season... I got caught up and forgot what all this was for... Not me that's for sure... and God has to bring me back down to reality to remind me of that...even if it means letting me be a punching bag to the devil. See Pastor preached last night on Sheaple (Sheep & People) Sheep are dumb animals.. you know what US, people (speaking for myself) are dumb animals. Sheep know their Masters voice, and will be afraid of another voice.  We know our MASTERS voice, but sometimes listening to the other muffled voice telling us otherwise as to where to go or do, ya we are that dumb. We should be afraid of that voice and a lot of time we aren't, because of our pride or stubbornness (speaking for myself again). 
Well after the craziness... All the women of our congregation showed up and brought soo many deserts (overflowing that we even had enough, for the meet & greet after service on Sunday) We had 4 visiting families for the Children's Show. My daughter and  I made up with hugs and love. So its not about me, but about what God is trying to do in me as I deal with my "dumbness" 
Well a new week and a new list of things to do, but you know what, that's okay, because if I made it out of the furnace last week, the fire this week (whatever it may be) will be dwindling down. CHRISTMAS is almost here... JESUS SEASON... Be thankful for one thing each day, because its one day closer to JESUS!!!

Jeremiah 12:3

But You, O Lord, know me; You have seen me, And You have tested my heart toward You. Pull them out like sheep for the slaughter, And prepare them for the day of slaughter.

Jesus Season

Well I hope everyone had a fantastic Thanksgiving, mine was a bit bitter sweet. As the tears have come & gone my kids are older and starting their families so trying to get everyone together at the same time took some maneuvering. We got to have Jacinda, Steven & Athena I til about 6:00 pm then off to his family they went, they got to say hello/goodbyes to David & Isabel as they were leaving & David was arriving. It's okay (yup, I know not something you hear out of my mouth) but you see Saturday I got all my kids & grandbaby together. We spent the day shopping at the mall, eating at David's favorite place Andreas at Ventura Harbor then Ice Cream at Coastal Cones....

 Finally to get our tree together (last time together as a family my heart tells me, yup, I know, my kids are starting to start their own traditions) & Starbucks for coffee & cocoa. Ohhhh the gifts are already under the tree & I know we got the best one!!!

December is finally among us (finally??? Geesh it's come too soon) it feels like summer just ended; guess the 80 degree weather doesn't help. Anyways... This much needed 4 day weekend feels like it flew. Thanksgiving & Fall decorations are out, back in storage and in with the Christmas decorations.. Not to get me confused, I am not into the whole commercial "buy buy buy" aspect of it but I do love the colors, smells, baking, get together business' of the month. I got soo much planning (yup I know, me plan hahaha) But last night pastor  preached on just that.. a lady that had every detail of her life planned down in 15 minute increments...Low and behold at that moment I get a little nudge from my wonderful daughter (they know me best) and she whispered "glad your not that bad" my response..am I really bad (yup, i know..coming from the lady that did every cute thing for a shower she seen on pinterest) That got me to thinking, what do I want out of this season?? Plan every minute of the month? New recipes to bake? Buy Athena all the cute outfits I've seen? The UGG boots I have been begging Jesse for 2 years for? NO none of that.. I want to see my kids and family serve God.. Isn't that the whole reason for this season? Jesus was born otherwise there would of never been resurrection and without that where would we all be? Its time to think about all the JOY (Jesus, Others, You) of CHRISTmas. Have a blessed, worry free Jesus Season! 

John 12:46

I have come as a light into the world, that whoever believes in Me should not abide in darkness.